I posted this originally wish list of qualities in a boy a couple years ago, and things have changed since then, which is to be expected... so here is an updated list of what my ideal guy would be like.
where are you ?
* doesnt mind my lame jokes, some of them are really bad
* thinks that i look good with no makeup and / or shower - this happens so much more often now
* doesnt mind that on my days off i would rather sit around and read in pyjamas then go out - ok so I don't like the idea of staying in as much as I used to, but I'm still not the kind of girl that's out at a bar every night.
* can deal with the fact that my bestfriend can sometimes be a bitch , i love her so get over it - apparently not, this person is no longer in my life.. and I think I'm better off
* will spend a whole day in bed cuddling - I still want this.
* doesnt think that its lame , or doesnt tell me that he thinks its lame , that i am addicted to tv on dvd - TV on DVD? what a lost concept. I still watch Dexter on DVD when a new season comes out.. but I can't seem the time to just relax and watch an entire season of tv on dvd anymore
* will drive my car , because frankly driving is lame , and i spend too much time doing this - since this my car has become my safety blanket of sorts, 9 times out of 10 I drive so that I have an out.. its weird I know..
* doesnt argue with me when i feel like paying , i have an independent streak, mk? - so this hasn't changed at all, except I've realized how much it actually drives me nuts when girls expect boys to pay for everything.. I don't want a guy in my life to pay my way.. I work my ass off to be able to take care of myself, thanks.
* doesnt make me feel like a spoiled princess - so this is a huge misconception about me, and it drives me up the walls. I have been very fortunate considering how I was raised, but when people think that my parents are still hand feeding me and taking care of me the way some parents will ; they best fucking think again. I have student debt, and credit card debt, I'm not without my faults. But my parents, as much as they help out, are not giving me handouts, and I don't want them too, I need to learn to stand on my own two feet. So assholes, call me a princess I will knock you out, thanks.
* calls me just to hear my voice - this would be cute the first couple times.. but I would probably get annoyed.
* thinks that its cute when i say things in french because i cant think of the right word in english - OK so being out of a french school for nearly four years has changed this, but I still do weird french things.. like wear socks with sandals.. being french is a part of who I am, it's tattoo'd on me & will never not be a part of me.
* knows where to find me when im trying to hide from the world - so I don't run away to be alone as much as I used to, but I still have go to places where I tend to find myself when I need to get my thoughts straight..
* understands that my camera is sometimes the one thing that keeps me sane - I've kind of lost touch with photography and its probably because I have so much on my plate.. but I know that when I need that solace its always there.
* doesnt make fun of the lame music that i listen too - so I still listen to some pretty lame music, but really doesn't everyone?
* thinks its cute that i know the words to most of the rap songs on cds in my car - I can still rap along to most songs on my ipod, and its weird, but I don't want a guy who doesn't think that it's at least a little bit awesome.
* understands that i am insecure in relationships , and doesn't make me feel bad / guilty about it - so I still can't manage to give my heart away.. or trust someone with my emotions.. this is a tough one.
* doesnt feel the need to check in all the time - WOULD DRIVE ME UP THE FUCKING WALL.. I don't want someone that I have to answer to, I don't need another parent, I want someone to be there when I come home..
* watches lame tv shows with me , hello ; reaper , antm , one tree hill ? - so instead of these shows how about: teen mom 2 & jersey shore.. I'm always going to have these lame guilty pleasures.. but one thing beats them all.. my beloved montreal canadiens.
* thinks that its cute when i stutter - I still do this all the time, or I can't form a sentence, or get the words wrong. I don't see it changing anytime soon.
* doesnt think that its lame that i have a journal and a blog - so I really don't keep up with either anymore, the time isn't there.. and I guess the need isn't, when I'm upset I still find myself writing though, its a comfort thing I guess.. I can't talk to anyone; so I write
* knows what program im taking at school , but doesnt push the fact that i have no idea what i want to do with my life - ok so that's gone down the drain in the worst possible way, bye bye biochem hello journalism. Just don't question it, and don't judge otherwise it's over before it even started.
* knows what bestfriend & i order at boston pizza - this would have to be changed, because i dont talk to this girl anymore..so I would say that the boy needs to know what kinds of beers I drink & how I take my wings.. my how things have changed
* does cute random things , seriously the little things are 1OOx more important than the big things - This still holds true today.. really. I'd so much rather you do something small & super thoughtful than something huge & generic.
* knows that i dont eat red meat , except on pizza and bacon - this still holds true I guess... but most people already know this about me.
* remembers that i dont particularly enjoy pop unless im sick - sick or drinking,
* knows that im crazy claustrophobic and that large big groups of people intimidate me - I'm still mad claustrophobic & people still make me nervous.. but I have a couple other weird and mostly unfounded fears
* understands that when i met new people i get really nervous and dont do much talking - For those who know me, this comes as a HUGE shock, I'm super shy when I meet new people; I clam up like you wouldn't believe.
* doesnt push the fact that im not very assertive - I am more now than I was before.. but really ask me what I want to do.. I'm probably still going to say I dont care.
* gets that i dont talk about my problems unless i absolutely have to - still wayy too true, I loose so much sleep over stupid things because I refuse to ask for help.. it's a HUGE personal work in progress
* realises that when i call him crying i dont need him to say anything, i just need to talk to someone, also appreciates that i have trusted him enough to actually call him in a state of weakness - this probably wouldn't happen because of the shitty results that have come from doing this in the past; if I did this that would mean I trusted whoever I call more than words can explain.
* doesnt expect me to be all open right away, ive been hurt a few times now, and for some reason i dont let many people in - as if this is going to change, I have so many walls up it's not even funny.. not only that but I have a habit of keeping people at arm's length
* doesnt let my sarcasm scare him away - I'm still a very sarcastic person, get past that, get to know me & it will be worth it.
NEW
* doesn't let my passion for a game scare him away.. I'm probably the worst person to watch hockey with, I cover my eyes, I yell profanities at my TV, I get angry over stupid calls.. I love this game & my team.
i dont think im being too picky , well i probably am . which probably explains allot
love♥
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