you've left me speechless.

So as usual I'm confused..

I don't know what to do about this boy that I have in my life.. I was really starting to think that maybe I could have feelings for him.. and then he took my friend home. Well, I've gotten over that, and we're friends, and things have been going well... but I don't know where I stand with him, and it's driving me up the fucking wall..

We talk everyday, or close to everyday.. but I don't know if that is his way of making sure he can get some when he wants, or because he actually cares about what's going on in my life, and really wants to get to know me.

I feel like I say or do the wrong things at the wrong times and screw things up, but I really don't know what to do anymore...

well here's hoping my heart survives whatever mess I have gotten myself into